After writing my last article I have experienced some life changing events. It seems I can never stop learning.

From one day to the next more mysteries are revealed in the most dynamic ways. Recently I have come to understand that our lives are made up of many roads that have been traveled. Many times however, we pick up parcels and segments of thoughts, which tend to over lap one another. They begin to blend in with each other as to where we begin to lose our identity.

We as humans go through this training school to learn, yet in the process of this academic reality, we become confused and withdraw from learning deeper and more vital truths. It appears something occurs that I have only been recently privy too that actually takes a gigantic bite out of our pursuit for true spiritual and physical success. This ignominy that I am speaking of is what I term, NOT filling the void...

Let me begin by saying that the illustrations I will use will better help others understand this perplexing situation that we all go through in life. One of the key elements I want to address today is the fear of doomsday. For 30 long years I was raised in a Christian belief that this world would soon becoming to an end. I listened as the ministers pounded the podium, stressing the need to be prepared to leave this world. Week after week I heard the report of how the nations were being stirred up to that one final battle that everyone has heard, called, Armageddon. I lived my entire life never thinking I would see one day to the next. Yet as the clock ticked away so also did the days, months and years. And I had found that whatever the source of information was that keyed many to believe we were at those final days, it simply never occurred.

As far back as I could recall as well as reading historical documents of certain religious circles, there has always been this doomsday type attitude that has hung over our heads. Yet decade after decade passes along with the centuries and we still remain as a planet continuing on in our academic pursuit. Strangely I struggled with this previous concept as to wonder when and where these events that would bring an end to our world, would occur.

I finally left the church and faith that I was raised in. I began to see many errors within this concept that indeed did not make any sense. I had a difficult time understanding why a great God would leave us abandoned on this planet to suffer terribly, just to turn around and make us suffer even more. I could no longer grasp the spiritual significance for such a paradox. I searched high and low in the Bible as well as many other ancient writings. And one thing began to reach out beyond all the others, and that one thing was, these events have been prophesied and spoke of for thousands of years, each generation of people have lived and died believing in the fatal day of completion. Yet these same people are no more than asterisks in these ancient documents. They are historical proof, that many events come and go, some disastrous; others not so. Yet when it is all said and done, this earth continues, and the bloodlines continue, LIFE SIMPLY CONTINUES.

What we are witnessing is a void that was never filled. We are all guilty in one way or the other of not filling our own void that would bring greater changes and awareness in this world that we live. I have learned by my own life, that just because I left my church, I really never left the old concepts that buried us all in fear. For as sure as I stand, I continue to hear the same old dooms day scenario over and over again, from one group to another, we continue to live in fear. I too was also guilty of this created illusion, because when I walked away from one error I was bombarded with another similar one.

It seems that if we do not fill this void with something useful and practical, that will be spiritually uplifting and positive, then we are doomed to repeat our mistakes. What is the OLE saying, if you do not know history then you are doomed to repeat it? Yet the question really should be at this point, WHY? Because we are not filling the void...

When we as humans have anything placed within our cosmological memory it will remain there unless we replace it with something else. This is a law of all action in the universe. If we don't learn by our mistakes we are doomed to repeat them. It is like the law of forgiveness. If one can extend their heart to forgive another for a misdeed, and show by action and will that they will be merciful, then that which was a stumblingblock will soon fade away even to the point of literally forgetting the misdeed. However if one does not forgive, then that will remain with them from here on out. If nothing replaces it, then it will reside within your spiritual blueprint.

This same law registers all thoughts and actions. This is why if you believe a certain thing, unless you replace that belief with something else, you are doomed to return to this faulty zone. However if you replace that error with something enlightened and truthful then you can go forward and the error will be replaced forever.

At times we as humans feel that we walk away from something and then go on to lead our life. But walls and fences that come out of nowhere stymie us. We feel trapped many times wondering why there seems to be this monster hiding behind the secret walls of our heart. We feel everything we try to do fails, and because of this we wander around feeling helpless to change certain circumstances in our life, that has built around us an illusion of prison walls.

Our physical and our spiritual life suffer tremendously because we can not determine the cause of our lack. We seek for all information and knowledge, yet we still fall suspect to this secret nemesis that haunts us day and night. What I have come to realize is the cloud that covers our lives is the void that has not been filled...

Getting back to the doomsday scenario, many have postulated this scenario simply because they were also raised believing these things or they are picking up some hidden memory from past lives. What actually occurs is people walk away from certain precepts but instead of filling that void that they had left, they begin to slowly revert back to the memory that was last programmed into their soul. So it no longer matters whether you are a church going, Armageddon believing individual, because now the names and places might have changed, but your thinking remains the same. There is still this belief paralyzing the inner mind, that this world's destiny is doomsday. If this is not straightened out then we will create this doomsday because that is our power and lot. We are creators of our own reality, and if we continue to believe in this damning principle, then it surely will occur.

The reason I am using this description is to better help others understand this mystery that I have come to learn. I am not speaking only of this one point; I AM using this principle to help reveal the depth of this gnosis. The reality in which I speak permeates many aspects of our lives. One of those aspects I wanted to address today is our lack of physical control in this reality. From the day we are born in this world we are all preprogrammed to follow the status quo. Our mothers and fathers, brothers, sisters, neighbors, friend's etc, continue to elucidate one another on just how things are to be done! And that indoctrination is what has stifled us from taking real control of our own lives.

Too many of us are living in fear of the unknown. We are afraid to step out and reach for the stars, because we have been programmed to believe that our lot in life is what is given to us, nothing more. We have been lied to and seduced to believe we are nothing more than slaves working for another higher working class of people. We simply fail to recognize our divine importance on this earth. And because of this we fail in the most god given right, that exists, the right of free choice.

We were placed here to make decisions, but if our thinking has been altered then we will not use our gifts wisely. We will become to self-involved in trying to conform rather than being an individual, ONE WHO IS PRESSING TO STRIVE TO FORM THEIR OWN INDIVIDUALITY. Too many of us are no more than carbon copies of one another. We are not creating our own reality; we are allowing others to create it for us. What has caused this to occur? Because we are not filling the void! We are not searching to find our own identity! We are just existing to survive instead of becoming a unique spirit in which we were created.

Each of us has a unique quality that resides deep within the soul matrix of our divine awareness. However we are not using this asset for our good and the good of others. We are becoming no more than robots that follow the whims of others that portray themselves as having all the answers. We can not let go of our own creations; we must use this gift to create our own world. One that is not in conformity with the masses, but one that is a light to the world, one that stands out as being special, because my friends, in truth each of us are very special. And each of us has been sent here to find this pearl hidden within the shell of our heart.

We must begin to create a new heart within our soul matrix. We need to examine our goals in life and ask ourselves, are we fulfilling the purpose for our existence. I have been guilty of these same points that I AM addressing today, because although I was learning the truths in mystery, I was not filling the void of that which I used to believe in with those things that would change my life, not just spiritually, but physically too.

Are we rising to the level of our dreams? Or are we stuck in a rut thinking this is the best we have been offered? If you do not understand that you are responsible for your own reality by your own thought creations then you are doomed for a mediocrity life existence. We have been lied to my friends, and we continue to lie to ourselves. Each of us has a divine right to our dreams, as long as they are not used to harm anyone else or anything. We can become so much more of a light if we would choose to examine the total reality of CHOICE. If we have freedom of choice, then why are so many stuck in situations that they do not want to be in? BECAUSE, we have not been using our freedom to choose, we have been governed by a secret agenda that lies within our minds. And that agenda is once again, UNFILLED VOID, which was never filled when we took our first breath till this very day!

A mystery character called fear has ruled us! This evil magistrate continues to raise its ugly head in our lives in everything we do. Whether it believes in a doom's day scenario, all the way to how we govern our own lives. We demonstrate this fear everyday of our lives for not choosing to better our position and condition in this world. We remain stagnant to the devil of worthlessness. Too many have chosen to remain locked up in a prison of their own minds, which is the lot and creations of this world, instead of creating their own reality and their own world. If we continue to dwell in this world as a unit to the whole rather than being the whole that leads the unit, then we will continue to remain desolate to our true nature and function in this world. My friends this world has come and gone and will continue to repeat the cycles, but you shall remain. And it is YOU that needs to begin to take control of this world, not the other way around!

We are so much more than we allow ourselves to believe. Meaning our potential rocks with power, yet we fail to access this glory for our fears. This brings me to the final axiom of this law. Since fear is the stumblingblock that rules, we must replace it with something else. If fear is not replaced, it will return and haunt you till the day you exit this domain. And then it will come back to haunt you another day!

One might wonder though, what do we replace fear with? We replace it with Love and courage. These two axioms are the key to the entire law. Everything we do in life is a particle based in choice, yet if our choices are plagued with fear, then our life will pronounce this attribute to the world. Yet if we replace this deadly disease with love and courage, not just in thought, but in action in our everyday life. Not only will we see great manifestations in our individual world, both physically and spiritually, but in those around us also! The destiny of this world, doomsday or not should not be your concern. Creating your reality for the service to life is your destiny.

We can truly be the salt of the earth, a city that stands high on a hill that can not be hid. This is the elixir of all true reality of life. We must fill the void so our lives can go forward and produce great fruit. We must begin by first recognizing our own attitudes and spirit. Are we filled with pessimism and negativity? Are we filled with hate and remorse? Are we filled with guilt and sadness? Then replace these things in every action in your life. Replace them with positive more constructive spiritual attributes that will enlighten your life and the life of others. Each day make a point to change one thing in your thinking that has not done you a bit of good. Take the time to restructure your own matrix. Then you will surely see, that this world and its prison is not your world. And when that fight becomes all too recognizable in the mind telling you to conform, just stand up and tell yourself, IF YOU ARE SO RIGHT THEN WHY AM I IN THE SITUTION I AM IN. Then replace that lie with the omnipresent truth of courage and walk forward with your head up high. And become your own reality for service to you, your family your friends and to this world.

COPYRIGHT(C)1999 JOHN V PANELLA

Part 1 ~ Does character stand for anything?

Part 3 ~ Overcoming the WALL!