It was at least 90 degrees, I was running late to an early afternoon appointment. My mind was filled with the duties of the
day; little did I know that in about 15 minutes I would experience a powerful mental change that would direct my awareness
into a new and more positive direction.
I had just turned into a plaza where I began noticing steam coming from my hood. I was not prepared for car trouble, as
would be the case this day. I had a job to do and I could not afford to waste time. But as usual, cars don't seem to care about
our schedules; in fact they tend to complicate life at the worst of all moments. Today though would bring with it a new gnosis.
For what I was about to experience would be the life-changing marker in my life.
It was a little more than two years after I walked away from a life religion. I had endured the pains and insults of taking the
steps that proceeded before me to leave a certain religious group. One enigma paralyzed me for quite some time. I was taught
in my particular belief system, that if I had ever left or walked away from the group that I was associated with, then that
would mark the day of doom for me. It would be only a matter of time that God would take his vengeance out on me for
making such a drastic life and death decision. It was drilled into my mind that if I would ever leave, I would also lose divine
protection!
I fought hard as I was going through my changes, to see God in more of a loving, positive light, and although I did walk away
from my earlier beliefs; I had felt that my reasons were proper. Yet day in and day out I had to wonder, did I make the right
decision? Or was it that I was truly doomed for a fiery hell for my perceived rebellion against my former group and beliefs
as it was contended, that I was following the ways of the devil?
I can not speak for all religious groups or belief systems, but within mine there was implanted a certain dogma that created
fear to think any other way than the way my church directed. Any other way was an act of rebellion and would lead to certain
eternal death. With these kinds of brain triggers it was difficult to find my direction in life when I would always have this
terror hanging over my head.
I simply could not see myself as an evil person. I felt that over all I tried the best I could, according to my understanding. I
was decent to most people; I did not have any real hatred towards anyone. I simply led my life the best way I knew how. Yet
I wondered for years, could a God take out vengeance on those that truly cared, and attempted to do the very best they could,
just because they could not see eye to eye with some religious scenario? It never made sense to me how so much could be
expected from us when in truth each of us live our lives not really understanding why we were put here in the first place. I
used to say to myself, why is God so complicated? It would be so much easier, that if this deity really wanted us to walk a
certain direction, just to take the time to personally lead us, so that we could avoid all the confusion that reigns when we only
know in part. Why make things so complicated that all that is created is class warfare. This is where one group thinks they
have the IN on this deity, and they are the only one's being led by this omnipotent being, whereas the rest are relegated down
to the "No good for nothings."
I battled with this dichotomy for a long time before the answers began to reveal themselves within me. One scripture in the
Bible began to really awaken my inner senses to where I began to understand the depth of this subject. It is where it stated,
that if a child ask their father for bread, would he give him a rock? If the child asked for fish, would a father give a serpent
instead? It went on to say, that in paraphrase, if humans, which are evil know how to give good gifts to their children when
they ask, How much more will your heavenly Father give to you when you ask?"
These verses began to resolve this massive confusion that many others, and I have had to suffer with. It became all to clear,
that this God whom we are led to believe we are supposed to bow down before, was trying to relay the fact that whatever
humans could do in the act of love, this being can and will do that much more. I started to understand the concept of real love.
No longer was love something that only humans could share, but in truth humans were only using a small aspect of a greater
reality that belonged to the divine world. No matter how much we could love or even understand love here in this realm,
there is a divine awareness that is filled with love greater than anyone can perceive, that goes beyond our world.
How foolish could we be to even think that a God would destroy those he loves because somehow we had not come to
understand the purpose for our existence and our potential and destiny thereof. How could we allow ourselves to become so
filled with error to believe the great divine Father/Mother would ever seek to destroy their children because we failed to
adhere, by our perceived concepts, of what we had believe they expected of us, when in truth most simply do not really
know?
Would our father or mother in a natural state of love ever destroy their children because they failed to honor their requests.
Why is it that we can as humans be ever so patient with our loved ones, never failing, yet we place this vindictiveness upon
the very ones that taught us love in the first place? Something my friends has gone terribly wrong!
I think it is high time that we began to comprehend that whatever love we can show, we are only borrowing this reality from
another greater awareness from the divine. We are only using in part what exists beyond the perimeters of this illusion. Evil
and hatred are faulty vibrations that we have created because of our separation from our divine reality, not the other way
around. We must stop placing evil upon that which is good because of our lack! We must recognize that we are truly a race of
children that belong to another time and awareness. We are all family from different worlds!
When I began to understand this simple truth, many things began to change in my life. One of which is what took place some
10 years ago now as I began writing in this article. What had occurred was my little angel in the pocket had revealed to me,
that I have not been forsaken, nor shall I ever be. That in this world we will all fall and come short of divine perfection. But
that we must continue to strive knowing that even though we will fail at times, that just as human parents can forgive their
children for failing, we shall know, that our heavenly divine watchers will forgive us even more.
What had occurred this hot summer day was a miracle that will always stay with me. When I began noticing the steam come
from the hood of my car, I had realized my radiator had over heated. Interestingly enough it was only days before when I was
speaking with a friend who had instructed me that if ever your car is overheating, he told me to remove the radiator cap while
the engine was still running. He told me that the pressure builds up when you turn the car off. So I decided to follow those
direction since they were fresh on my mind. However there was one thing that I failed to realize, and that was if there was a
hole in the hoses, it could react like a shotgun and force the water out that much faster.
That is exactly what had occurred, the radiator blew its top when I unlocked the cap, and I was covered from head to toe in
boiling hot water and anti-freeze. In the split second this occurred it is strange how much can run through the mind. As I fell
back I was stunned and a tad shocked as I waited for the intense pain to cover my body. Instead what had occurred was the
answer that changed my life. As the water which was steaming everywhere upon the car and the pavement, covered my body,
I noticed a strange sensation come over me. I began to touch my body, my face, my stomach, my eyes, and my legs. I could
hardly believe what was occurring. The water was ice cold upon my body. Every where I touched, the water was cold.
Instead of having terrible burns possibly 1st, 2nd and third degree, I had more felt like a jumped into a swimming pool. I was
so stunned that I had walked over to where the water had sprayed out on other objects, when I touched the water it was fiery
hot.
I stood there contemplating what had actually occurred. I knew within my heart that what took place went against the known
laws of our science. I knew that some type of spiritual intervention had taken place. It was then I realized that the fears that
plagued me were simply a lie. I knew in one moments time, that we are never forsaken, and that we, each of us have
protectors and angels that at any time can make their presence known. They will reveal that which we have failed to
understand, that love does not originate with humans, but with our divine ancestry. It wasn't the miracle that changed my life;
it was the love I really never knew before!
Sincerely;
John V. Panella
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